The small things piled up and became big things in my head and in my body. Thoughts were loud, feelings of overwhelm from ridiculous things like the kids not liking what I cooked for dinner. It all seemed like a lot.
I know that there are big things in this world. People going through hell and back. Australia burning. But sometimes it’s the small things that can get you too. When the small things add up, and you don’t take a much needed break. A break to just be. To say screw the to-do list, screw people’s expectations of me, screw my own expectations of myself.
I don’t say this for sympathy, or for you to tell me what a great mum I am. I share it to say that some days suck, and that is OK. There is no such thing as linear progression in life. Some days my anxious thoughts and feelings are SO LOUD. Other days they are just a whisper.
Last night I went to bed early. I intentionally turned off my alarm. And this morning I woke up, and I felt calm and OK. I’m working on giving myself grace, and forgiving myself for days where I just feel like shit. It is a blip on the radar, it doesn’t mean the world is coming to an end. It’s a blip.
Thank you for being my sounding board ❤