Okay I’m gonna go ahead and say it.
I’m absolutely mentally exhausted. Everywhere I turn it’s new panic updates about COVID-19.
Do I think it should be taken lightly? Nope.
Do I think there are people suffering now and more at risk? Yup.
Is it just a flu? Just a cold? Just a respiratory issue?
Should I breathe in public? Should I stay home if I sneeze? Should I get tested?
Are my grandparents gonna die? My kids? Some of my favorite people?
Big deal? Not a big deal?
Freak out? Don’t freak out?
Shit. My kids are off school for the next few weeks. Will I survive this? How about the working class? Will they have enough money for food with all these closures? How about rent?
Shit. Food. Rent? How are we gonna get more food? What if we get trapped in our neighborhoods like those in Wuhan? How am I gonna feed my babies? What if Bri gets laid off? How long can we survive?
I’m 34. I don’t remember this ever happening to this extent before.
Is it just me? Has this happened before? Ask a neighbor. Ask a friend. Ask someone in their 50’s, 60’s, 70’s, 80’s.
“Not to this extent”, they say.
Shit. Okay then it’s worse than they say it is. Or is it? Shit. I’m so confused.
What if I’m infected? What if I contaminate someone by accident and they die?
Shit. I’m a murderer now.
Heart racing. Palms sweating. I need to quarantine. But I don’t have enough food to quarantine yet.
Must. Go. To. The. Store. Shit. What if I don’t have it and I go to the store and pick it up like the mass hysteria over toilet paper?
What’s happening with the toilet paper? Shit. Do I have enough toilet paper?
Go on Facebook. Facebook will tell me what to do.
Goes on Facebook.
More travel bans. More schools closing.
Angry rants about people taking it too seriously.
Angry rants about people taking it not seriously enough.
Angry rant about funny memes.
Holy. Santa. Claus. Shit.
Get off Facebook. What‘s. Actually. Happening!?
Now I’m panicked. Angry. Full of hate. Scared. Frustrated. Even more confused. And to top it off I now feel guilty for laughing at funny memes. 😳🤦🏼♀️
Y’all this is fucking madness.
Everyone and no one is a medical expert on COVID-19.
It’s new. It’s scary. It’s overwhelming.
But don’t you realize what’s happening? Either way it’s creating “THE GREAT DIVIDE” that satan has wanted all along.
Instead of bringing us closer together in the biggest global conflict of our time it’s tearing us apart.
We’re buying up goods, medicines and let’s address the obvious, toilet paper we don’t need in a panic & hoarding it like it’s the apocalypse. This panic takes away from those who do actually need these things.
The constant battle to have your “professional” opinion on COVID-19 heard loud and clear on Facebook is ripping apart friendships over difference of opinion.
So much anger. Fear. Hate. Confusion. Panic.
Jokes are no longer allowed to be funny.
Prayers are no longer “working”.
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.” -John 10:10
Don’t let the enemy win.
Whatever happens over the next few months let’s not look back and regret our actions.
Let’s focus on doing AT LEAST 1 good deed per day. Sharing the light that will overcome the darkness.
Infected. Not infected.
WE. ARE. HUMANS.
WE. ARE. ONE.
Love you friend. Share your funny memes. Share your articles in order to educate instead of with fear or anger. Wash your hands. Help a neighbor in need. SHARE IF YOU AGREE!!!
If you need support managing sanity (cough cough -me that’s me 🙋🏼♀️) in this time of social distancing let me help you.
We have an online community of women working together daily over video chats to stay connected.
Mindful mama’s groups.
Just say the word. I’ve got you boo.